Therapy, part 2

I mean, what is therapy even?

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I had my consultation today, with a chubby soft-spoken white guy, with a tiny braided beard. Not like a sick-as-hell Jafar from Aladdin type beard either. This guy looks like Jonah Hill, but gayer and with less grooming skills. Beard all uneven, scraggly, and shorter than it ought to be to be seriously considered a beard. Like braided pubes on his chin. Shouldn'ta gone with the twisty, it looks lame my guy.

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Finding a therapist is not something the Internet has created a platform for yet. When seeking a therapist, the average person, myself included, doesn't have a clue what they actually need. We're all the foremost experts on ourselves, who we are, what we've lived through; but not on what we need. Especially when you haven't been getting it, it can be hard to recognize what you're missing.

I was recommended by one therapist that I try someone who specializes in Dialectic Behavioral Therapy, that's a specific program and type of therapy that is intensive, includes group sessions and homework. But my insurance's website only listed a single person in the country that is in-network and practices that format. This person I'm working with now is that single therapist in the country. Ole' Twisty Pubes.

Now, I get into the consultation call, and of course the first thing they say is that DBT is something they 'trained in/went to school for' but not something they actually do, and instead they specialize in Internal Family Systems, another, different, type of therapy which aims to compartmentalize different aspects of the psyche and treat them as different arguing family members. I hate this analogy, by the way, family is stressful enough. Isn't the goal of therapy to ease stress?

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Every time I try a new therapist, there appears to be some new technique or method they think is best, but ultimately it's really about what "I" think is best. But, therapy as it stands today doesn't put the tools in a patient's hands to even begin considering the kind of therapy they might need. Self-diagnosis is probably a bad idea for many anyway, but in my case we're talking about advice from a therapist to seek a certain type of practitioner only to find the tools aren't available to seek specific types of practice.

Bad marketing, if you ask me.

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This week is the week I'll start putting my Goblins together. I've been researching these little fucker's for months now, and I'm finally ready (excited, even) to start putting those thoughts down on paper. LFG.